For years (and years and years), I have told myself (and anyone who wonders about my general go-go approach to everything) that what I really want is more space in my days.
I’ve talked about it forever, but until this year, I haven’t actually, you know, done anything about it.
That started to change this spring when I began taking Sundays off. I wrote in April about how making choices that align with our values have repercussions. The roosters come home to roost, as Glennon Doyle says.
This fall, after writing the No Margins post about living a less-squished life, I took a week off. Instead of coming back from traveling and immediately starting classes again, I took a week at home to…well, I don’t know why I did it, to be honest, except that I thought it would be a way to experiment with this whole space thing.
What I discovered was enlightening. Over the course of a few days, I went from burnt out to inspired, from flat to excited, from hating everything to being lit up by everything.
I learned that making space doesn’t mean quitting everything. Because it’s not that I want to retire or stop working. On the contrary. In fact, it’s because I have so much to say, so much I want to explore, so much that I want to share, that in order to do all of that well, I need space.
If that isn’t some counter-intuitive, bamfoozling sh*t, I don’t know what is. But now I’m curious to play with this space oddity in other ways.
One of them is here in my writing. I love writing this blog. I really love it. But I’ve been writing every single week (except when I’m traveling and even then I write sometimes) for years.
So I ask myself, What if I play with that?
What if, instead of every week, I write 2-3 times a month. Weekly-ish. Every usually.
This space odyssey oddity is an experiment. I’ll see how it goes, how it feels. I’ll check out how my inspiration and energy changes. Or not. Who knows?
For now, just typing these words, I feel a little opening. Like a door.
I'm stepping through the door
And I'm floating in a most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today
~ David Bowie